seeing him after almost a month this "him" doesnt refer to any bf o ex bf o even a crush its just my best friend now you ll will think why i am being soo dramatic about just seeing him not even a proper meeting after all he is my bestestt friend and why i didnt call out for him... i reli have no idea why i didnt call out for him i was seeing him after exactly 1 month 9hours and just like last time this meeting wasnt planned either... and like last time things between us didnt change...exactly a month before he told me that he didnt want to us to stay in contact as his gf didnt want him to and in this looong one month we havent really communicated that much arghh stupid insecured gf.. i always wonder why gf have problems with best friends... and obviously the best friend has to be understanding enough to leave their way after all they are soulmates no one is suppose to come in between and by chance you actually miss him too much and call him or msg him she will believe you are trying to snatch him from her how filmy ... not that i havent ever been on the gf side i have and i am sure i wasnt telling him to stop talking etc etc i was never that insecure and obvo the truth remains if he has to leave he will eventually me telling him to break contact with anyone will just slower the process...
but now he has left not completely but he has almost you know the hanging relationship you have with people which eventually goes in the dump just the matter of time... i didnt reli thing this would be happening to us i mean we had that awesome bonding we had the forever teasing and meeting and pulling each others leg... and pulling others legs with each other... he was always there for me as much as i was... it wasnt ever a one side thing... we both loved the friendship we shared equally no one greater no one less... but good things end soon more like we never get enough of the good part... just seeing him got me numb i couldnt move just looking at him 10seconds were that effective it isnt like i hate him or i m angry nor am i blaming him or something like that i am just upset with what happen to us... vacations wil end in exactly 6days that also means i will be seeing him every single day if just a 10 seconds of seeing him can hurt soo much i have no idea how i will be handling the formal hi's and conversations that will follow... its heartbreaking to see him act so aloof so distant and so indifferent towards me.... i wish this period ends soon and someday suddenly he will com and hug me and say"sweatheart i have missed my best friend and i am not letting her go for anyone" hoping against hope this wil happen soon....
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