its exactly 12 midnight... 
on normal year i would be talking to you singing pulling your leg and aimlessly talking away about nothing important....
afterall you are my bestie and its your bday today but this year things are different...
it was just two months ago that you said the words " i am banned from msging you i have done everything but my hands are tied i hope you will understand" ending everything that we ever shared...
just one sentence and now the aimless talking switched to work related talks only...
there had to be a reason for me msgin and calling you...
knowingly i started avoiding the places where you hangout the most facing you is more then painful its not that i hate and i m ignoring you its more like i miss you and i m upset with you so i am ignoring you
more like i am waiting for you to miss me then to come right up on your face and telling you that i miss you that i miss my bestest friend...
we never shared anything romantic we were always besties and we were meant to be that way i didnt expect anything more from you except to let the bond we share remain the same let nothing affect it atleast talk like we did and not talk like strangers but was to much to expect ...
now the day i would have been veryyy excited about has come and here i m still thinking should i call or just leave a msg or just let you think i have slept off or just forgotten your special day...
with your number entered on the screen with just a green button away i wish i had the courage to go ahead...
the though is not that should i wish you or no it more like do u need a wish from someone you left behind in life...